I was told to be a little more attentive.
By the self help book I read,by my mother,
And everybody else around me seemed to tell me the same thing.
So here I was jogging on a familiar route, where I had been coming everyday, with loud music playing in my ears.
Playing through my iPhone, it had been my best friend since a year, since the day I bought it.
My alliance with music, extending from a period long before that.
But today, I had decided to keep my iPhone in my pocket, along with the pair of earphones within which I found my closest confidante.
So there I was feeling inept walking on my familiar route, but ALWAYS with my music.
When I was young, I had thought of myself to be a keen observer glancing and noticing little things like the deflated tyres of a moving car and a neighborhood stray dog going missing suddenly, you know, things like that.
These are the same things that the people around me always failed to notice.
But then, as I grew up, I began letting go of this habit. Of course, I was becoming a teenager and had a lot many important things to do otherwise.
Trying to do the same thing today, reminded me of my childhood days and I cursed myself for letting go of that habit.
Suddenly, I realized that,having let go of the constant sound in my ears has already begun to help me.
I was beginning to think again, this being the first step on being a keen observer.
The jog that day not only helped clear my mind but also made me understand so many things that it made me feel like it was the ultimate jog. The jog of insight. I know, it sounds a little funny.
I noticed a girl, she might have been a little older than I was, trying to cross the road.
This was a busy road, where heavy vehicles sped away during the day as well as the night. But surely, it wasn’t that hard that it would require her to wait intently for her turn to walk, and stare at the road like it was the busiest road of the world.
I began watching her. Every time she tried to run ahead quickly trying to dodge a vehicle, she stepped back afraid that it might hit her. I knew that she couldn’t have been as slow as an old lady, that she was questioning whether or not she should step ahead.
She was trying to be too careful, not to make a mistake.
That day, at that time, I saw fear in her eyes, not allowing her to speed ahead. It was as if, the fear had held her feet, not allowing her to break free of it, even though she wanted to.
I kept looking at her, cheering for her in my mind that she could do it. And suddenly, I saw her facing up, gathering all her strength and walking straight right through her fear.
It felt somewhat similar, Right?
Yes, this girl is in all of us.
Your’s might be afraid of taking big responsibilities, or standing up for yourself against the crowd or even afraid of change.
We just need to take a long walk to get to know her and help her stand up to face that what she is afraid of. Just cheer her away!